Recently Saint Paul Church celebrated Saint Paul. Why, you might ask? Because Saint Paul (and Saint Peter) are remembered on June 29 in the church calendar. What’s so special about Saint Paul. Is it that he, like other saints, is perfect? No, that clearly is not the case. Not at all. He’s not a saint, and neither are we.
Consider this, Paul, by his birth name of Saul, is mentioned a few times in the book of Acts. He is first remembered for his participation in the stoning (read murder) of Stephen (my namesake) in the seventh chapter of the book of Acts. Saul is there as Stephen is killed. Next Saul is remembered in the eighth chapter of the book of Acts for going from house to house hunting (really) Christians. Finally, in the 9th chapter of the book of Acts, Saul seeks warrants to hunt Christians in Damascus. He is taking his quest beyond Israel. Saul is hunting Christians and there’s no bag limit.
On his way from Jerusalem to Damascus, Saul is struck by a bright light, like lightening. When he asks what is happening, he hears Jesus’ voice in the midst of it all. Saul at long last realizes he’s been persecuting the very Son of God. He realizes the error of his way and follows Jesus.
Why do I share this story of Saul and Saint Paul and St. Paul Church? I share this because we are living in stressful and difficult times — like those of the early church. We are living in a time in which we simply don’t know what is going to happen next. The news is full of surprises ranging from statues toppled, looting, rioting, protesting, to Russian bombers and murder hornets. We just don’t know what’s going to happen next. Yet I say to you that while we don’t know, God does!
Saul did not change to a believer named Paul on his own. He changed because the Lord was at work in a mighty way. We do not gather to worship Paul. We gather to worship our Lord who works through us all, even zealous Saul who eventually became Paul.
Saint Paul is a story of redemption from a bad guy Saul who hunted Christians to a good guy Paul who preached the good news of Jesus Christ who died and rose again for all. Paul wrote many of his New Testament letters from a prison cell. Hard times are not a new thing for Christians or for the world. Yet we persevere like our great nation. We shall overcome as we, all of us, gather together in Christ Jesus.
May you know the Peace that surpasses all understanding, the Peace of Christ Jesus our Lord!
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Rev. Stephen Reed, pastor, St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall.
Chaplain, Fairbanks Police Department

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith Section on July 10, 2020.

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A Christian is a follower of Christ.
Christians are not limited to one Christian denomination, church body or faith practice. There are literally thousands of Christian denominations and churches throughout the United States and the world. Some are ancient and some begin daily. Each strives to honor and worship Jesus in a variety of ways. In this article I will discuss two key aspect of all Christian faiths: Jesus and love.
Jesus commands Christians to love. Specifically, Jesus states (in the Gospel of Matthew — the first book of the New Testament) that the greatest commandment is to love God with heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37-38). Christians are also commanded to love neighbors (Matthew 22:39); love one another (John 13:34-35); and love enemies (Matthew 5:44-45).
Let’s unpack that a minute. Love God, love neighbor, love one another and love enemies.
Jesus’ command to love God with heart, soul and mind originates with the Shema in Deuteronomy 6:4-5 (NKJV), “Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one! You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.” This is a total and devoted love of God. It is powerful and all consuming.
Love your neighbor originates in Leviticus 19:18, “Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against anyone among your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the Lord.” In the Gospel of Luke (10:25-37), Jesus shares the parable of the Good Samaritan in response to a question asked by an expert in the law, “And who is my neighbor?”
The parable tells the story of one person after another ignoring the victim of an aggravated robbery left on the road to die. The least likely person, a Samaritan, takes pity on the victim and cares for him. The victim did not reside next to his helper, nor was he of the same religion, nor the same nationality. Yet the helper, a Samaritan and therefore despised by Israelis, stopped and helped him and paid for additional care. As Christians we can hear Jesus’ command to love your neighbor as yourself to include anyone. Think of it.
Love one another originates in John 13:34-35, “I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” Jesus says this shortly after washing His disciples’ feet and predicting his betrayal. Jesus commands Christians to love one another; He does not command us to have anger, judgement, gossip, or unforgiveness. Jesus is quite clear about each of those as signs contrary to faith. Yet there are those who spend more time talking about than talking to. The commandment ends with this: “Everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” If only!
Love your enemies originates in Matthew 5:43-45, “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” This is, perhaps, the commandment with which I most struggle. I find it very difficult to love my enemies and to pray for those who persecute me. In a similar fashion, I struggle with the part of the Lord’s Prayer that connects my forgiveness with my forgiving others. It is not easy to be a Christian.
In this article I have tried to briefly convey Jesus’ commands that we love God, love our neighbor, love one another, and love our enemies. Jesus says that the world will know we are His disciples if we love one another. Imagine for just a moment if that’s how Christians were known — as people who love. We live in hard times, many are struggling with fear and anxiety about Coronavirus and Economic uncertainty, and what, besides murder hornets, awaits us in 2020. Let us take time to love. The world, and our neighbors, need love.
Rev. Stephen Reed, pastor, St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall.
Chaplain, Fairbanks Police Department

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith Section on May 15, 2020.

Are you walking by faith or by sight through this storm we call Coronavirus? No, it’s not a judgment. I am not in any place to judge. It is instead a question I am also trying to answer.
The seventh verse of the fifth chapter of Saint Paul’s second letter to the church at Corinth (this sounds like a math problem), better known as 2 Corinthians 5:7, states, “For we walk by faith, not by sight.”
So are you walking by faith or by sight?
I have a confession to make. When I walk, I do so with my eyes open looking all around (for wolves and bears!). So I am walking by sight, not by faith. On the other hand, whenever I leave the house I do so with the faith that everything will be okay and I’ll be able to return sometime later.
When I think of walking by faith alone I am reminded of a scene from “Star Wars: A New Hope” in which Luke Skywalker is on a combat mission to destroy the Death Star (spoiler alert!). Suddenly Obi-Wan Kenobi’s voice tells him to “use the Force Luke! Let go! Luke, trust me.” Luke responds by shutting off his targeting computer and related systems and instead uses the Force to successfully carry out his mission.
To be clear, I am not equating the Christian faith with the Star Wars spirituality called the Force. I am simply trying to find an example of acting without seeing. Personally, I am much better at acting, or speaking, without thinking.
When I think of walking by faith and not by sight, I think of farmers and gardeners. Both start out with seeds and soil. Neither have sight to see the finished produce and the time in between of rain and sun. Yet, in the end, plants grow and there is much to celebrate.
As Christians we celebrate Easter and Jesus’ resurrection knowing that the early disciples wept at Jesus’ capture, mock trials, torture and death. On that first Easter Sunday, they did not go to the tomb to celebrate. They went to visit Jesus’ grave. What they found they did not foresee, but before them they saw that He who raised others from the dead was Himself risen.
It is difficult in this time to walk by faith when we see and hear frequent news reports of health and economic distress. It is easy to focus on the “what if questions” that haunt the Internet and news media. It is important, as my best friend put it, to remember that though we cannot vaccinate or otherwise cure Coronavirus, we can treat anxiety, fear, insomnia, and depression.
I believe it is important that we reach out and care for one another. Some are struggling intensely and looking for a way out. Call people and check in with folks. Our circumstances may vary, but we are all in the same storm. It may seem at times like we’ve lost our joy, but Sunday will come and we’ll see our Lord risen again.
God’s blessings be upon you and upon us all. Remember to pray for those on the frontlines of this battle: First responders (law enforcement, fire, ambulance, dispatchers), our nation’s armed forces, nurses, doctors, respiratory therapists, emergency room technicians and staff, nursing and retirement home staff, grocery store staff, sanitation crews, truckers, postal workers, delivery people and many, many more!
The Rev. Stephen Reed is Pastor of St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall and Fairbanks PD Chaplain.

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Are you walking by faith or by sight through this storm we call Coronavirus? No, it’s not a judgment. I am not in any place to judge. It is instead a question I am also trying to answer.
The seventh verse of the fifth chapter of Saint Paul’s second letter to the church at Corinth (this sounds like a math problem), better known as 2 Corinthians 5:7, states, “For we walk by faith, not by sight.”
So are you walking by faith or by sight?
I have a confession to make. When I walk, I do so with my eyes open looking all around (for wolves and bears!). So I am walking by sight, not by faith. On the other hand, whenever I leave the house I do so with the faith that everything will be okay and I’ll be able to return sometime later.
When I think of walking by faith alone I am reminded of a scene from “Star Wars: A New Hope” in which Luke Skywalker is on a combat mission to destroy the Death Star (spoiler alert!). Suddenly Obi-Wan Kenobi’s voice tells him to “use the Force Luke! Let go! Luke, trust me.” Luke responds by shutting off his targeting computer and related systems and instead uses the Force to successfully carry out his mission.
To be clear, I am not equating the Christian faith with the Star Wars spirituality called the Force. I am simply trying to find an example of acting without seeing. Personally, I am much better at acting, or speaking, without thinking.
When I think of walking by faith and not by sight, I think of farmers and gardeners. Both start out with seeds and soil. Neither have sight to see the finished produce and the time in between of rain and sun. Yet, in the end, plants grow and there is much to celebrate.
As Christians we celebrate Easter and Jesus’ resurrection knowing that the early disciples wept at Jesus’ capture, mock trials, torture and death. On that first Easter Sunday, they did not go to the tomb to celebrate. They went to visit Jesus’ grave. What they found they did not foresee, but before them they saw that He who raised others from the dead was Himself risen.
It is difficult in this time to walk by faith when we see and hear frequent news reports of health and economic distress. It is easy to focus on the “what if questions” that haunt the Internet and news media. It is important, as my best friend put it, to remember that though we cannot vaccinate or otherwise cure Coronavirus, we can treat anxiety, fear, insomnia, and depression.
I believe it is important that we reach out and care for one another. Some are struggling intensely and looking for a way out. Call people and check in with folks. Our circumstances may vary, but we are all in the same storm. It may seem at times like we’ve lost our joy, but Sunday will come and we’ll see our Lord risen again.
God’s blessings be upon you and upon us all. Remember to pray for those on the frontlines of this battle: First responders (law enforcement, fire, ambulance, dispatchers), our nation’s armed forces, nurses, doctors, respiratory therapists, emergency room technicians and staff, nursing and retirement home staff, grocery store staff, sanitation crews, truckers, postal workers, delivery people and many, many more!
Rev. Stephen Reed, pastor, St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall.
Chaplain, Fairbanks Police Department

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith Section on May 1, 2020.
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Lent began on Ash Wednesday (Feb. 26). I challenge you to read this article and observe a Holy Lent. You can do this! Really.
What is Lent? Lent is a time to remember all that Jesus did for us — His journey to Jerusalem triumphal entry, His washing of the disciples’ feet, His beginning communion, His capture at the garden and subsequent torture and trials, His crucifixion and death and, later, His resurrection.
Lent is a 40-day period (not counting Sundays) leading up to the three-day period prior to Easter. (Is this beginning to feel like a math problem?)
Lent is a time to intentionally turn and follow Jesus. Lent is not easy. Many denominations ignore Lent. Some think Lent is just for Catholics. No, Lent is for Christians, all Christians — Lent is a challenge. I challenge you to observe a Holy Lent.
People observe Lent (i.e. follow Lenten disciplines) in a great many ways. Some give up chocolate and/or other sweets. To be clear, Lent is NOT an opportunity for a divine diet. Others give up expensive and elaborate meals. That is a bit closer to the Lenten discipline of fasting – which is best done under a physician’s supervision.
I want to challenge you to consider another option. What if you were to consider Lent from two perspectives: Internal and external?
The internal perspective is the one most often associated with Lent. The internal calls for self-examination and repentance; prayer, fasting, self-denial and by reading and meditating on Holy Scripture. The focus is an internal one of discovery of one’s relationship with God and obstacles to give up for Lent.
The external perspective calls for you to see the world around you. The external perspective calls your attention to people in need, young and old alike. The external calls you to help at places like the Fairbanks Rescue Mission, Love INC, the Door, the FYND out Free Clinic, the Interior Center for Nonviolent Living, Stevie’s Place, NA, AA, Family Readiness Groups on Fort Wainwright, Boys and Girls Club, Salvation Army and much, much more!
Both perspectives are important. The internal perspective can help you to face each day as a child of God, forgiven and loved. The external perspective can help you to help others to know God’s forgiveness and love.
When you consider these perspectives consider Jesus. What would Jesus do? Did He stay home and read his King James Bible? (that’s a joke by the way) Or did he go out and help? Remember, Jesus took time simply to pray to His father in heaven. Don’t forget, that is our strength and our shield. In addition to praying, Jesus helped many people in many, many ways. You can do this too and make a difference in Fairbanks and the world.
I invite you therefore to the observance of a Holy Lent.
The Rev. Stephen Reed is a trained and ordained Episcopal Priest serving St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall. He also has the honor of serving as Chaplain for the Fairbanks Police Department. Insight is sponsored by the Tanana Valley Christian Conference.

Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith section on March 13, 2020

“So, first of all, let me assert my firm belief that the only thing we have to fear is fear itself...” from Franklin D. Roosevelt First Inaugural Address.
“Contagion: Nothing Spreads Like Fear” 2011 Movie
Have you heard about the Coronavirus in China? Some are referring to it as a pandemic. Others are calling it a “Black Swan” event with widespread health and economic consequences. In this article I will display recent headlines associated with the Coronavirus and scriptural passages (with book and verse numbers) to meditate upon when considering them.
“Coronavirus Death Toll Hits 25 As Beijing Confirms 830 Patients Infected” Zero Hedge 1/23/2020
“Do not be afraid” Genesis 15:1, 21:17, 26:24, and 46:3
“Coronavirus Update: Chinese Cities Cancel Schools, Holiday Events” NPR 1/25/20
“Do not be afraid” Exodus 14:13 and 20:20
“Containing new coronavirus may not be feasible, experts say, as they warn of possible sustained global spread” Stat News 1/26/20
“Do not be afraid” Numbers 14:9 and 21:34
“The Coronavirus is a Black Swan Event that may have serious repercussions for the US economy and job market” Forbes Magazine 1/27/20
“Do not be fainthearted or afraid; do not panic or be terrified, do not be discouraged” Deuteronomy 1:17,21,29; 3:2,22; 7:18, 20:1,3; and 31:6,8
“US companies suspend China operations, restrict travel as coronavirus outbreak spreads” CNBC 1/27/20
“Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Be strong and courageous.” Joshua 1:9; 8:1, 10:8,25; 11:6 
“Germany confirms first human coronavirus transmission in Europe: Man infected by colleague who appeared not to have symptoms when virus was transmitted” The Guardian 1/28/2020
“Peace! Do not be afraid” Judges 6:23
“China now has more cases of coronavirus than it had of SARS” NY Times 1/28/20
“Do not be afraid” 1 Samuel 12:20; 23:17
“Coronavirus hits big business, companies are cutting operations and restricting travel to China as disease spreads” Forbes 1/28/20
“Do not be afraid” 2Kings 1:15; 19:6; 25:24
“Coronavirus: Whole world 'must take action', warns WHO (World Health Organization)” BBC 1/29/20
“Do not be afraid or discouraged.” 1 Chronicles 22:13; 28:20; 2 Chronicles 20:15,17; 32:7
“As Coronavirus Explodes in China, Countries Struggle to Control Its Spread” 1/29/20 NYTimes
“Do not be afraid” Matthew 1:20; 10:26,28; 28:5,10; Luke 1:13,30; 2:10; 12:4,32; John 12:14; 14:27
“Coronavirus live updates: death toll jumps to 170 amid evacuation delays for foreign nationals” The Guardian 1/29/20
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7
As you can see from the above pairing of headlines and scriptures, there are reasons to be concerned and reassurances not to be afraid. Commandments regarding fear (fear not, do not be afraid, etc.) are the most repeated throughout all of scripture. This is not to say that there aren’t things that scare us, but that our hope and glory is in Almighty God.
Keep heart dear ones and know that though some may be worried and / or overwhelmed, God is neither afraid nor overwhelmed. Pray for the Chinese people and for everyone.

​As I ponder Christmas, I find myself wondering about what it would be like if it had all happened today. Put another way, how are you celebrating Mary’s crisis pregnancy? Are you, like Joseph, questioning love and doubting future plans?

Let’s unpack the above a little.

What does it mean to say Mary’s crisis pregnancy? Do you think that Mary, a young teenage girl, had this planned out all her life? That’s not to say that God didn’t have it planned? For Mary, it was a crisis. Why? Mary was betrothed to be married to Joseph. Betrothed is more than engagement, but not quite marriage. She was betrothed and pregnant and Joseph was NOT the baby daddy. Joseph was going to quietly divorce her. Mary, who was pregnant outside of marriage, was soon to be dumped by the man Mary was going to marry. Things were not looking good for “highly favored” Mary the one whom all generations will call “blessed among women.” Imagine the struggle Mary faced after accepting the word of the Angel of the Lord.

Imagine also the struggle that Joseph faced. All he knows is that his fiancé is pregnant by another, just days from their marriage. Joseph was a righteous man. He did right according to God and God’s Law. The right thing for Joseph to do, upon finding out that his fiancé was pregnant and knowing he was not the father was to quietly divorce her. He could, in fact, have publicly accused her of infidelity and had her stoned (read killed) for her adultery. He instead, mercifully, chooses to quietly dismiss her. She won’t be killed, but the wedding is canceled and people will talk. She will be shamed and abandoned in their small community.  

Are there people like Mary and Joseph today? Are there young women today who are struggling with an unplanned pregnancy? Are there men (and women) like Joseph who give only judgement of pregnant women (or girls) in crisis?

If you could help, what would you do? Where would you take a young (teenage) and unmarried Mary in crisis facing abandonment by her Joseph? There are options. One option is the Fyndout Free Pregnancy Center, a place where pregnancy status is confirmed for free and support provided. FYND (For Your Next Decision) helps pregnant women (and dads) in crisis.  They’re located at 1402 Wilbur Street, Fairbanks and are open Tuesday – Friday. Their number is (907) 455-8255 and their website is: https://fyndoutfree.com/

Here at St. Paul Church, we support the Fyndout Free Clinic to help young moms in crisis. We support as a church and we support individually. We do this, because we care and it’s the right thing to do. Perhaps we honor Mary and remember Christmas when we do so. Certainly we honor our Lord Jesus Christ in this midst it of all. Please pray for all facing the crisis of an unplanned pregnancy. It is always easier to judge, than to help. Take a moment and help. Merry Christmas to all the struggling Marys out there and to all.

The Rev. Stephen Reed
Pastor, St. Paul Church on Farmers Loop next to Mushers Hall
Chaplain, Fairbanks PD

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith Section on December 27, 2019

​​We are halfway through Advent. What is Advent? It is the 4 week season that began on Sunday December 1st and continues to Tuesday December 24. Advent is also the beginning of the Church year. What does all this mean for you? It means that Advent is a time to look back to ponder Mary (an unwed pregnant teenager), Joseph (most famous stepdad), & Jesus (long promised baby messiah) in a manger in Bethlehem. Advent is also a time to look forward to Jesus returning in the clouds. How does Advent affect you? We can go deeper than nativities, shopping, carols, and Christmas lights.

Advent continued this past Sunday with readings from Isaiah, Romans, and Matthew. In Isaiah we heard prophesy of a time when all creation is at peace; the wolf and the lamb, children and poisonous snakes, bears and cows, etc. We live in Alaska. We know bears and wolves, but happily not snakes. We know that bears and wolves are predators to be respected and feared. We know that peaceful co-existence of predator and prey (wolves and sheep, cows and bears) is counter intuitive. Isaiah is powerful to hear and contemplate.  

In the reading from Paul’s letter to the Church in Rome, Paul encourages the church “…to live in harmony with one another…” Harmony and peaceful co-existence within a church is not always easy. God is again at work in a mighty, powerful, and meaningful way.  

​In the Gospel lesson from Matthew, we hear of John the Baptist. He is a unique character in the Gospel. He is a rugged individualist who speaks against religious leaders and gathers followers in the wilderness. He survives off the land and baptizes in the river while proclaiming one who is greater. I can imagine him doing well in Alaska.  

What do these three readings have in common? They are all examples, to quote from the Lord’s prayer, of “…Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done…” Consider the implications of that phrase. Whose kingdom? Is it a kingdom in Fairbanks, Juneau, or Washington DC? Who is on the throne of this Kingdom? Is it an elected official of a particular party? Are you on the throne of your kingdom?

Whose will are you most concerned about? Is it the will of the majority of residents of Fairbanks, or Alaska, or our great nation?  Maybe it’s your own will or the will of your family and friends that most concerns you. That’s certainly understandable. What would it be like if we lived a life wherein “God’s will” was more important than each of our own wills? How would that work? What would that feel like?  
We are halfway through Advent. Christmas is quickly approaching. We see Jesus in a barn, for there was no room for the Messiah and his family. Do you make room for the Messiah? We also look to the clouds for Jesus’ return. Do you imagine what that will be like? We hear prophesies of a completely different world following Jesus’ return and the coming of His kingdom. Do you ponder how things will change?

I wish you a meaningful Advent and a very Merry Christmas. Ponder the thoughts above as you look back to the manger, forward to the second coming, and all around for God’s Kingdom and Will to be done.

Blessings,

The Rev. Stephen Reed

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner's Faith section on December 13, 2019

​This article is written for  all who struggle with suicide.

Imagine for a moment that we were losing 22 servicemen (and women) a day in oversea combat operations (what we call war) in Afghanistan, Iraq, Syria, etc. Now imagine that we were losing 154 servicemen (and women) a week in these, and other, areas. Now imagine we were losing over 615 servicemen (and women) a month. Imagine this went on day after day, week after week, month after month, and year after year. There are statistics that we are losing 22 Veterans a Day to suicide.
 
​This article is written for Active Duty and Veterans and for all who struggle with suicide.
 
If you are Active Duty, or a Veteran, and are having a really hard time dealing with everything, then stop and talk. Will the person you talk with understand? Did he (or she) see what you’ve seen, hear what you’ve heard, or experience what you’ve experienced? Has he or she felt guilty for living and being while others are gone forever?
 
No. He or she has not walked in your boots and has not endured what you endured. No.
 
But, you can still talk! You can still try! Talk!
 
Why? Because you’re important, that’s why. Because the world, your unit, your brothers (and sisters) in arms are better for your presence. Because when you’re gone, you’re gone. Then only the enemy wins. Live for the ones who didn’t. Only the enemy wants you dead. Talk! 
 
Some fear a stigma of mental health, depression, PTSD, Survivor’s Guilt, and much more. Some worry that seeking help won’t be good for their career. I need to tell you something straight up: Your suicide will not be good for your career. Suicide is career ending. Talk! 
 
Suicide is a taboo subject. If we talk about it someone might commit suicide. People are already committing suicide; not talking about suicide is not stopping suicide and it’s not helping anyone. If you think someone is suicidal, or if you’re reading this and you’re suicidal, then talking about it can actually help. It gets it out in the open. Talk! 
 
Some believe that a person who talks about suicide isn’t serious. Almost everyone who makes a fatal attempt tells someone first. Some keep deadly secrets and won’t tell others when someone has told them that they can’t take it anymore and just want to end it, or that the world would be a better place without them.  Deadly secrets have deadly outcomes. Don’t keep deadly secrets. Better to have an angry friend than lose one forever. Talk!
 
Some believe that talking about or attempting suicide is attention seeking behavior – that the person isn’t serious. When a person says something that makes you think that they are suicidal then listen and take it seriously, it may be their last conversation. Talk!
 
Some believe that if a person is serious about suicide then nothing can be done to prevent it. Something can be done and that’s listening and getting the person help through the Emergency Room, Crisis Line, or counseling centers. The life you save may be your friend, family, neighbor, or stranger. Talk!
 
Why do people attempt suicide? There are many reasons including an overwhelming sense of pain, hopelessness, and helplessness. Life can be deeply painful including, but not limited to, losses of family, ability, job, relationships and endurance of abuse at school, work, home, or online. Some who attempt suicide have a prior mental health diagnosis while others have no prior mental health history and seem to act impulsively with alcohol and firepower. Talk! 
 
For a moment let’s consider this – you’re overwhelmed by losses and pain in your life, you’re in a dark and desperate state and you want it to end. Life can be terrible and deeply painful. Sometimes the pain comes from surviving when others did not. Yes, people of all faiths and backgrounds experience overwhelming adversity. Imagine, or acknowledge, that you’re thinking of killing yourself. What are you to do? Suicide is a desperate gamble. Would you gamble all that’s important to you on a bet? I mean what’s really important like your life, family, and everything you value on a bet? Most would say no, they wouldn’t gamble absolutely everything on a bet. Yet that’s exactly what you’re doing when attempting suicide – you’re gambling everything, your very life, that the pain will stop and you’ll be better. What if you’re wrong? Talk!
 
In a prior job, I used to talk with people every day who were dying, family of people who had died, and people who had attempted suicide. Each and every day. I asked people who had attempted suicide if they wanted to be happy or dead? I would ask if they could recall or describe a time when they were happy and how they could get to that place again. Some described terribly abusive domestic violence relationships. I said that love is neither fearful, violent, nor abusive. People would say that they didn’t so much want to die when they attempted suicide, but that they just didn’t want their circumstances to continue and couldn’t see any other possible way out. Talk!
 
I have spoken on many, many occasions with survivors of suicide – the family and friends of a person who has taken their own life. Survivors experience tremendous guilt and pain about what could have been done to prevent a suicide. If you’re reading this and you’re a survivor then you need to know that you are not responsible for someone else’s actions. You are not. If you’re considering suicide then please know that people will not be better off without you. You are not a burden. Also know that suicide is contagious. Ask people who have attempted and they will tell you of family, friends, classmates, and co-workers who took their own life. Talk! 
 
Suicide is not limited to one race, income, faith, orientation, or gender. It is an equal opportunity killer. What are warning signs of suicide? There are many and they include, but are not limited to: suicide of a friend or relative, prior suicide attempts, saying that you want to die or end it all, depression, substance abuse, giving away items of special value and/or getting your affairs in order, changes in sleep and/or eating, self-isolating from friends and family, outbursts of anger or crying, failures in school or work, apathy about the present or the future, a sudden change in attitude to happiness from anger and sadness. Talk! 
 
This has been a painful article to write. I felt it necessary due to the prevalence of suicide in our community, state, and nation. Suicide is in our schools, churches, military, theaters, First Responders, families, veterans, and homes. Suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in America.
 
Resources:
 
If you’re considering suicide call the FAIRBANKS Crisis Line 24 hours / 7 days at (907) 452- 4357 or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255. Text: any message to 838255 
Call Fort Wainwright Behavior Health Clinic at (907) 361-6059
 
If you’ve lost someone to suicide call Hospice at 458-3090 for free grief support and the Suicide Survivors Support group that meets the 2nd Wednesday of each month from 6-8pm. 
A Suicide Support Group meets the last Wednesday of each month the Arctic Resource Center for Suicide Prevention from 6-8pm. Call Jim Wisland at 907-987-6829 for more information.
You can call me at St. Paul Church at (907) 479-7998
Online: http://suicideprevention.nv.gov/Youth/Myths/, https://www.psf.org/

​Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner’s Faith section, Nov 15, 2019.
 

​“Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” (John 13:15 English Standard Version)
 
With this verse in mind, consider First Responders.
 
Often, a person’s encounter with First Responders begins with a crisis. Someone needs help. It may be something that has happened, or it may be happening right now! The crisis is followed by a phone call to 911. On the other end of the phone call, a trained and experienced professional answers. They have likely never spoken before, but in this fateful moment they meet and the 911 professional is a lifeline for a person, or persons, in crisis.
 
After ascertaining the situation, the appropriate resource is dispatched to the call. It may be a fire fighter, a law enforcement officer, and/or an ambulance crew.
 
Consider for a moment each of these First Responders.
 
Like all First Responders, fire fighters willingly enter life-threatening situations without knowing who they rescue or whose homes they enter. They simply go. Fire Fighters are trained, equipped, and experienced. These professionals not only fight fires, but also respond to calls for medical assistance, constantly train and maintain (themselves and their equipment), and much, much more.
 
Next are the Law Enforcement Officers (LEOs). Like all First Responders, they respond to calls for service from friends and strangers. They lay down their lives in the service of all, starting when they swear an oath and continuing on patrol.   LEOs carry and train with firearms and willingly enter dangerous situations to save lives and engage threats. Sometimes LEOs get a bad rap for giving out speeding tickets. Go to the scene of an accident where a young person has lost their life speeding and crashing, and you’ll understand that you should slow down. Go to notify next of kin that a loved one won’t ever be coming home, and you’ll really understand.
 
Next are the Emergency Medical Technicians (EMTs) and Paramedics that make up the Ambulance Crew. These are the people who get down and dirty in bodily fluids, blood-borne pathogens, and interpersonal dynamics and conflicts. They too lay down their lives for friends and strangers.
 
What do all these First Responders have in common? Each lays down his/her life for friends and strangers. Each has an incredibly stressful and stress filled job and carries the burden encountering people on their worse day or last day. Each go where others fear to tread. All make a tremendous difference in the lives of many! The next time you see a First Responder, stop and say thank you to the very people who lay down their lives for you – whether you be friend or stranger.

Printed in the Fairbanks Daily News-Miner’s Faith section, Aug 2, 2019.